31 August 2003 | 7:38 p.m.,

lobotimise this

Was just watching the end of the athletics from Paris - what will I do with my evening snow I can't watch the men in tight shorts running?!? Okay I'm only kidding about the tight shorts thing, thats never really done it for me... But I do like the athletics. Its just a pity that all the great performances are always overshadowed by whatever controversy and/or positive dope tests occur.

What I don't get is how does someone with narcolepsy [which I thought was something to do with randomly falling asleep, like when you're stressed..] know when to take their medication?

And don't even get me started on the spectacle that was Jon Drummond [and please.. even *I* know the false start rules better than him. You move your foot in the blocks and its a false start.

Still there were lots of good points - Darren Campbell beating Dwaine "the big I am" Chambers in the 100 metres was my highlight.

Now I'm all bereft.

I had the weirdest dream last night. I don't remember most of it, it was all weird bits and none of it seems connected. I'm sure I was shopping with my best-friend-when-I-was-11, Flick, but then I got back to this house and it was Mezies and we must have been swimming [which is stupid cos she can't swim] cos I had my swim bag and a wet towel and she was all "oh you can dry it here" but I didn't want to hang around so I said I would just deal with it when I got home.

But anyway the weird bit was that I was walking along this street and kate moss was lying dead beside the road. There was more to it than that and more people involved but yeah she was lying at the side of the road, behind a car [not that she had been run over, the car was just parked] and she was wearing a white dress with black print. Then my best-friend-when-i-was-9/10's brother [who i knew to see and that was about it, he was younger] was getting undressed in the middle of the street.

Oddnes indeed.

Been back at work two days and it sucks. And tomorrow the hitler incarnate that is Kate apparently returns to work so I'm sure that'll be a barrel of laughs. Fair play to her, she has somewhat mellowed in the last year or two and she has been ill this year. I can sympathise but that doesn't mean I've got to like her being around. She used to have a habit of screaming and swearing at people in front of the whole factory whether they deserved it or not. I mean, if I have done something wrong then I can take a telling the same as anyone else but she did with me once, came storming in the chill shouting her mouth off, and it turned out to be over something that I couldn't have known about...

The last two days haven't been the most exciting. The chill didn't have the same appeal yesterday without my eye candy and today was pretty boring. It was nice to have so many people ask if I had a nice holiday or comment on the fact I'd been off. At least they noticed my absence!!

I'm just feeling really tired and fed up tonight though. I just want the next week and a half to be over..

Either that or a full lobotomy to stop me thinking so much!