24 September 2003 | 9:18 a.m.,

cheesestrings for cute and cuddly

Today I'm off to Mezie's. No idea what we are actually going to end up doing all day but at least it probably doesn't involve bread. I sent her a text yesterday saying maybe we should just find a cafe or pub and have a good old girly gossip. In response I got this garbled text message, half of which I didn't understand at all and the rest of which was going on about how she had made bread and could I bring a toaster and some butter. I know she got a breadmaker and I'm sure her homemade bread is very nice but I was like "we're going to spend all day at her house eating bread?!?" Evidently not. That message [well actually there were two along the same vein which made it more confuddling] apparently was meant for her mum!

So yeah.. good gossip session coming up today.

As for yesterday, I seemed to be getting it from all sides about P. Firstly Tucks was making not exactly direct comments about me standing around "yakking" to P for 10 minutes and I got irrationally embarrassed. I don't know why I was letting it bother me, I mean it must be blatantly obvious to anyone who works in the chill that I fancy the pants of P. But bother me it did.

Then Shug walks up to me and says "I've to ask you a question. Cute and cuddle or tall and handsome?"

me: huh?!?

S: cute and cuddly or tall and handsome?? which of the P's do you fancy?

me: who the hell told you to ask me that?!

S: P-pal

me: [laughing]

S: I told him I already know the answer but I don't want to hurt his feelings

me: really? well you can jump to whatever conclusions you want...

S: so what do I tell him?

me: tell him what you like!

He went away and I could see him talking to P-Pal but goodness knows what he was saying.

When he came back he said that he had told him that I wasn't into cute and cuddly and that P-Pal was totally devatsted but had said he would keep trying anyway.

I saw him later and asked what Shug had been saying and when he said he hadn't been able to make out half of it, I told him what Shug had said to me. His response?

"what one am I supposed to be? Cute and cuddly? SHUG thinks I'm cute and cuddly???!?!!" while looking distinctly worried.

I suppose it bothers me that people might think I'm some slapper going after a bloke thats spoken for, but really, aside from all the flirting, we're just good mates. He knows how I feel about him being with someone, however unhappy he might be with her. I guess thats whats important. But I'm a kind of blend into the background type of person. I don't like to feel like people are paying attention to anything I'm doing. If that makes sense!

There was a funny misunderstanding when Tucks said I should get G-strings for the guys I give a lift to {ali g and mad S in other words] for Xmas. I thought he said CHEESESTRINGS and I'm like "cheese?!?" and there was a lot of giggling and Ali G looked a bit like "whose giving me cheese?" You had to be there but trust me, it was very funny. I'm off to get ready cos I'm supposed to be at Mezies in 3/4 of an hour..