03 October 2003 | 7:35 p.m.,

nearly the weekend

I'm still pondering what to do about this weird email primary school stalker guy! I was telling Shug and P about the email yesterday and they were both like "that sounds well dodgy.. the type of email you just don't reply to" but while I can see their point I'm also extremely curious about who the hell this guy is and why he remembers me so well.

I just had a text from Mezie asking whether I have picked something to wear to the party yet. The Christmas party that isn't happening until DECEMBER! Geeze.. All I said was that I wasn't looking forward to having to look for something to wear, I didn't say I was going to start looking now. I'll be rushing around the day before in a mad panic. Assuming I end up even going. I'm having second thoughts about the whole thing. Especially since P-pal told me he isn't "allowed" to go now cos its too expensive so close to Christmas. I thought it would be a laugh if he was going.

The last two days have been not bad. I was in a really really good mood yesterday and a fairly good mood today. Almost like a caffeine giggly mood but without the caffeine - its now been 7 whole days since I had any. Go me! Anyway I was even getting the piss ripped out me by the guys I go for breaks with for laughing. Various comments about people doing things to me under the table. Tucks said something about him usually getting the blame [because he sits opposite me] but he was sure it was Mad S because when Jim was sitting in Mad S's seat I was giggling but when noone sat there I was a lot quieter. This was actually true but definitely nothing to do with anything Jim was doing. I was just getting tired by then.

Speaking of Mad S, he hasn't turned up the last 4 days so we all reckon thats him FINALLY getting the sack. If he even comes back that is. Gully reckons he is dead in a gutter somewhere - OD'd on whatever drugs it is he does aside from the hash.

As for Tucks... When I came back from lunch I went back down the corridor with Shug as he was going to the canteen and I was headed to the Boning Hall to check temperatures. Tucks was coming back up the corridor towards the packing hall and he smiled as he walked by. Nothing wrong with that you might think? Usually he makes some comment about me going the wrong way as we quite often pass when I'm off to do the temps. But Shug starts making these "aye, yous two are like THAT" type signs with his hands and I was like "what?!"

"That was a big smile he gave you!!!"

"eh? no it wasn't"

"that was the first I've ever seen him smile"

Well maybe if he actually spent more than 30 seconds in the chill he would've seen him smile!! He still calls him the "Blackie clone" because he spends so little time in there that he doesn't know most of their names! {Blackie being someone who worked there a while back and Tucks looks a lot like him).

Mind you maybe I gave him the wrong impression when I said something about "oh thats like fucking Tucks.." but never finished what I was going to say and it sounded like I meant FUCKING Tuck in a physical sense when I really meant it in an insulting "he's an arsehole" way